[Content warning: eating disorders, anorexia, calorie counting]
Content Warning: the following article deals with topics concerning eating disorders and pro-eating disorder online communities.
It was really difficult for me to start writing this piece. I put too much anger in the first draft. In the second, I sounded too detached from what I was writing. After the third and fourth attempt I almost gave up. Then I realised that the only way I could have do this was by being totally honest and telling things the way they are, simply starting from the beginning.